I stand in front of the meat section, my eyes darting over the various packages. Beef, chicken, pork... none of it feels right. I fidget with my shirt, the fabric crumpling in my hands as I try to decide. Should I get the steak? No, that’s too expensive. Maybe the ground beef? But what if it’s not enough? I say to myself in my head, unsure what to do.
I scrunch my lips together, feeling the familiar wave of embarrassment wash over me. Why is this so hard? I know I need to eat, but I can’t help feeling out of place here. Everyone around me seems so confident in their choices, and here I am, frozen in indecision. I think further, fully flustered in my current state.
My thoughts wander back to the blood substitute my parents sent. It’s running low, and I need to find something to supplement it. But what if someone sees me buying all this meat? Will they think I’m weird? I question to my self in my head as I flick one of my fangs with my tongue, a nervous habit that only makes me feel more self-conscious.
I sigh softly, glancing around to see if anyone’s watching. Maybe I should just grab something and leave before I draw more attention to myself. I just wish I could blend in better, be more like everyone else. I think to myself lastly as I tirelessly look over the choices more.